My grandma on my mothers side, Barbara Davies, passed away just this last weekend.

I have cried the majority of my tears I think.. feeling well into that listless n indescribable stage.. I catch myself staring off quite abit, I don't like being alone in this time..... gives my brain time to wander, which only hurts. I'm hoping, more than anything else, that the rest of my family will be okay. My mum more than anything else, she was rather tight with her mum. Looking at her face, and the loss she has suffered, almost brings me to tears again.
Distracting myself with tasks is working abit here and there~

I just really needed write this down somewhere, and with the usual attitude this time of year, don't want to really bring the moment down with a sad tone..... but she deserves a moment of my time at least.

She was a beautiful person, generous and sweet to all~ we will all miss her very much, and it may be a while before Sunday Roast will be the same family occasion it was when she held it nearly every week/fortnight that she did.. Instead I hope it'll be a tradition to strongly remember her by.
It was really very nice to sit down with her, just to send her my last goodbyes before the mortician took her away. She was lucky enough to depart in her own home without pain, surrounded by family in her final days, and is now in a better place, catching up with grandpa.. :'3

...I guess there is no 'good time' but there are varying degrees of a bad time, being so close to a time I go away has put me under an immense amount of pressure to 'get stuff prepared' as well support family and attend the coming funeral. There has also been a few other family issues to arise with everyone down here in Tassie. Things that only weigh heavier upon, but must be addressed given the circumstance of time & distances..

All in all it's been a super draining last few days, and the on-coming week isn't going to be much brighter, but I shall try my best to be there as much as I can for those I love who are taking this turn of events the hardest, and continue with plans already laid out.

Thankyou grandma, for everything you were kind enough to say and the wisdom you bestowed upon us in the time we shared together, it does not go unappreciated.


I'm sorry to anyone I am owing things, or otherwise dealing with, for being abit slow to respond.. I am trying to keep up, just been a very intense last couple o' days,....
_{*projects will resume next update}