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Passing

Published: Feb 10, 2018

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abstract alligator bones crocodile dead death digital ethereal painting passing practice sad sadness skeleton spirit still vent like

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I slept a lot today.
^{well, yesterday technically}

Almost a whole days stretch in fact..
And had a few interesting dream-pieces throughout that, most of which I can of recall abstract fragments from.
-One of which contained a reference to a long-term pet of mine, Tabatha (whom passed away in August of 2017), and she was just in that, like any other normal day/catting about.

But even my dream-brain was somewhat aware that is wasn't real; and my partner Kraden, also featuring in the dream, told me 'it wasn't really her, obviously, just a cushion that looked very like her' and upon picking up this very real cat in my dream, looking directly into her little cat face, I asked him again "are you sure? she sure feels like Tabby" .. he assured my it wasn't, he had checked too because he'd also been fooled, and when looking down once more, she had indeed become the cushion he was telling me this was.

-Twas only a small aspect of that dream, but upon waking & telling a friend it as struct me with a stroke of feeling the sadness surrounding the loss of her in my life once again pretty hard and it's been in the back there just kinda slumped against all forethought.

It doesn't get me down too often, she lived a good long life (of which I think I knew her almost entirely for. She could fit in the palm of my child-sized hand when we found her and her two brothers abandoned & we weren't even sure they would take solids they were so small.) and I'm so very thankful for the time shared with her, rich for the good memories etc..
-Still just left a rather large gap in heart upon finally passing, and that aches from time to time. \|'S

On top of this some on-going medical issues (that are now on the way to get treated better) Have put my thoughts if an odd place for now..

So here is somewhat of a Vent-Piece inspired by my state of mind right now~
was very calming to work on actually
[Soundtrack when making this]

*Not entirely satisfied with the execution of, but just goes to inform me I need more digital speed-paint practice

Digital Paint in Clip Studio.

Artwork by Erika V, Feb 2018

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garageguy

Feb 11, 2018

Man. I would not want to get stepped on by whatever that was. Poor alligator.